Sometimes I wish I could go back. The old folks have always told me I’d get here, wishing for what I couldn’t have anymore, wishing for the simpler days, wishing for old friendships. I like who I am today, but ohgod.

The level of devoted we were to each other, naively, serenely, blindly devoted. We didn’t know it, though.  Thought ourselves better than that, believed that we thought our actions through before we took them, knew that together, there was nothing in our way, and nothing to fear. Ohno, we had no idea what it was like to think something through so long that it no longer was even an option, let alone relevant.

I’m glad my livejournal hasn’t disappeared or been lost, but sometimes I wonder if it doesn’t do more damage to my mental health, than good.

While cleaning today, I had to move one of my book shelves.  It’s the one that holds most of my reference material, and some of my fiction.  I couldn’t help but think, as I counted the number of bibles on my shelf, “You know, for a self-proclaimed non-christian, I sure do have a lot of bibles.”  Then I heard my grandmother’s voice in the back of my head.  I started replaying the only real discussion we ever had about religion.  It was when I told her that I was pretty sure my religious views followed something not christian, and were actually closer to this new thing I was learning about:  Paganism.  I explained that, from what I could tell, the Catholics had a rather screwed, and close minded view of things.

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I’ve been playing with different CMS’s for 5 hours, but and have decided to go, again, with WordPress.  It’s too pretty, too popular, and too familiar for me to have the patience to work with anything else.

I started coding with HTML nearly four years ago, building only a simple site.  I moved to HTML with CSS, and then very slightly into php before I decided hand coding was boring.  I started playing with WordPress, but didn’t read anything about it before hand.  I quickly got frustrated, as I tried to make WordPress do what I wanted it to by hand.   At work a couple weeks ago, we had a ‘Continuous Learning Session’ on WordPress, and my eyes have been opened.

CMSs are the way to go, for sure. I played around with TextPattern a little, but quickly got bored. There are a lot of options out there, but I wanted to get busy playing with layout and writing. WordPress it is.

Hello, world.  Prepare to be stormed.

trees in full bloom, on walnut st.

I walk my puppy two or three times daily.  This time of year, the trees on Walnut St. are in full bloom, and gorgeous.  Every time Buddy bumps them, and gets showered in petals, he stops moving, as if his movement is what attracted them in the first place.  I’ve never lived on a street with flowering trees before.  The smell alone is wonderful.
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Feeling restless, I went for a drive early last fall.  I drove west, all the way to Lake Michigan, and then north.  I wound my way back, driving only on red roads.  I have no idea, now, where these photos were taking, but I love what that day did to me.  I will drive on as many red roads as I can, between now and when I die.

This abandoned church left me with one thought: crooked jesus.